Saying goodbye is never easy, and I and my colleagues have all experienced this emotional ride. We know the pain and how hard it is to say goodbye to our best friends, our family member we call our pets.
My heart always breaks when we have a euthanasia, as I know the pain the family will feel and go through. The pet is ready to leave, whether it’s an ongoing illness, or an old frail body that cannot get around without feeling pain. We are the emotional ones, the ones that will feel the loss for months and even years to come.
I know it’s been over a year since I lost one of my babies, yes I say babies, as that’s how I feel about my dogs. Miss Twinny was my shadow, my Velcro dog, my sweet precious baby. She had come into my life 6 years previously, a rescue from a terrible situation. She and her partner Fluff had been rescued from a shelter in South Korea. They came to me not knowing how to live in a home, not knowing how to do stairs, or use the backyard. It was a battle, but so worth it, they had come such a long way to find love, and they found it at my house.
Miss Twinny used to gaze at me from across the room, I would often look up to her soft round eyes gazing at me. She would follow me everywhere, and I used to joke she would follow me to the end of the earth to just be near me.
Miss Twinny got very ill, very quickly and with the help of bloodwork, we were able to determine that she needed an ultrasound, and then a visit to a specialist. Miss Twinny had an adrenal mass, and there was a chance if she had surgery that they could remove the mass. She was booked for her surgery on a Friday morning, I said my goodbyes as I looked at her frightened little face in the hospital in Toronto. She was worried, as she was unsure of her surroundings. I trusted the staff and Doctors there and knew she was in good hands.
Miss Twinny unfortunately went into respiratory distress the morning of her surgery, I got the call and was able to make it in time for her to crawl into my arms. I was told there was nothing that could be done and that I should say my goodbyes. That goodbye was so hard, but she did manage to crawl into my arms and look at me for the very last time with her soft round eyes as I said my goodbye.